Instead, do what I did:
But somewhere between the carpool rides and the late-night study sessions, she became something else entirely. my first love is my friends mom
It will never be a relationship. It will never be consummated. But it is real. It shaped the architecture of my heart. It taught me that love is not just about wanting to be with someone. Sometimes, it is about wanting the best for someone—even if the best thing for them is to never know how you feel. Instead, do what I did: But somewhere between
Jake’s mom, Lisa, was, by all external metrics, just a mom. She drove a minivan. She made meatloaf on Thursdays. She yelled at us for leaving wet towels on the floor. But it is real
I wanted to say, "You did that. You taught me that love is supposed to feel safe, not anxious." Instead, I said, "Thanks, Mrs. C." I got in my car, drove to the empty high school parking lot, and cried for twenty minutes.
Let this impossible love teach you what you truly value. You value emotional safety. You value maturity. You value someone who has their life together. That is an incredible gift. Most people date for a decade before figuring out what they need. You figured it out early.